crying.

i know crying is not the best way to solve the problems, but instead of that, it can reduce my stress. and it is the best way for me. crying and crying. sampailah tertidur. yes. and when i woke up next, i'll easily lupakan masalah yang dah jadi. and im ready to tempuh the next liku kehidupan walaupun masalah yang lepas tak settle lagi. haha. weird me aite? yes, its me. 

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well said, im not having fun with my life. being alone in the room for few hours eeach day is my routine. yes, its me. i've spend MOST OF MY TIME laying on my bed. sitting like a retarded. dancing around. watching movies. i have my own reasons why i did that. a lot of reasons. i do have a big family (which is too complicated) and yet i still love them. walaupun banyak sangat salah aku dekat mata diorang. taktahu lah kenapa. sometimes, i dont mean to be rude. never. tapi kalau dah tak boleh tahan sangat nak buat macam mana. its not my fault pun kan. i rather keep all my problems instead of telling them. i kept smiling when i am with them. but to be honest, im crying inside. like most of them never wanted to have me in their life. whhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhyyyyyyyyyyyyy. i just want to know why. i just want to have a happy life. like what my friends got. i hate to see them happy. i hate it soooooooooo much.

kehidupan

assalamualaikum wbt.
semakin aku membesar, ye, hati aku makin lemah. mudah tersentuh. semakin hari, aku semakin faham akan erti kehidupan. hidup ni ramai yang kaitkan dengan roda. absolutely yes. kadang kat atas dan kadang kat bawah. tapi aku nak kongsikan satu cerita. maksud aku masalah aku. hm.
aku dah tahu yang hidup ni macam roda. tapi aku dapat rasa yang kehidupan aku tak seperti roda pun. aku tahu yang aku tak pernah aloneeeee pun. well, Allah is always there. i knew that already tapi, hati mengada. jiwa ,hati ni semua lah semua nak kata yang aku punya kehidupan selalu kat bawah. tak gerak gerak. banyak masalah yang aku lalui. dugaan demi dugaan datang tak putus putus. semakin lama aku semakin fedap. ye aku fedap. memang each day there's people yang buat aku happy but. orang yang buat aku makin down lagi banyak. how to tempuh then? aku taknak cerita one on one, face to face, sekarang aku penakut. ye, aku tak seberani aku dulu. ye, nad yang dulu yang kuat, tabah, gembira dah takde. aku banyak menghabiskan masa dengan memikirkan masa depan aku. aku rasa aku akan terus begini. kalau aku tak jumpa jalan yang seterusnya. aku harus keluar dari kotak fikiran aku ni. aku mesti.

cause we are

cause we are an spm student next year. tuition class. sepanjang cuti dua bulan ni. T.T sadlife that i cannot enjoy my holiday but its for my masa depan too. spm is not easy. i know that. tuition class sangat sangat lah bagus because kita still tak stopkan our brain dari berjalan . kalau once dah stop, susah nak start balik. memang take time betul. kata kata cikgu zulfadzli semalam. mwahahahaahahaha. well, im gonna enjoying my class. because ada kawan baru dari sbp sbp lain. mrsm. teknik. (Y) cause we were awesomeee lidaaaaaat. haahahahaha. bye people. assalamualaikum

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lets check this out fellas. sepanjang im not updating my blog, there is so much things happen in my life. sama ada diduga mahupun tidak diduga. semua perasaan ada dalam diri. i trust in "people came and go" from stranger to friend to friends forever and back to friend again. that is life. i believe in it.
A.L.O.N.E !
thats my life is. but im not alone. as people came and go in my life. and Allah is there by my side. forever and always with me.i believe that kawan kawan ni semua mesti tengah terbungkam atas katil .tidur lagi. hahahaha. i just love them to the moon and never getting back and May Allah ease everything that happen in their life.

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I SUDDENLY RASA NAK GET BACK WITH THIS LAST LONG LOST CONTACT BLOG. macam lah blog ni boleh bercakap-.- lewls nad. hahahaha.