crying.

i know crying is not the best way to solve the problems, but instead of that, it can reduce my stress. and it is the best way for me. crying and crying. sampailah tertidur. yes. and when i woke up next, i'll easily lupakan masalah yang dah jadi. and im ready to tempuh the next liku kehidupan walaupun masalah yang lepas tak settle lagi. haha. weird me aite? yes, its me. 

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well said, im not having fun with my life. being alone in the room for few hours eeach day is my routine. yes, its me. i've spend MOST OF MY TIME laying on my bed. sitting like a retarded. dancing around. watching movies. i have my own reasons why i did that. a lot of reasons. i do have a big family (which is too complicated) and yet i still love them. walaupun banyak sangat salah aku dekat mata diorang. taktahu lah kenapa. sometimes, i dont mean to be rude. never. tapi kalau dah tak boleh tahan sangat nak buat macam mana. its not my fault pun kan. i rather keep all my problems instead of telling them. i kept smiling when i am with them. but to be honest, im crying inside. like most of them never wanted to have me in their life. whhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhyyyyyyyyyyyyy. i just want to know why. i just want to have a happy life. like what my friends got. i hate to see them happy. i hate it soooooooooo much.

kehidupan

assalamualaikum wbt.
semakin aku membesar, ye, hati aku makin lemah. mudah tersentuh. semakin hari, aku semakin faham akan erti kehidupan. hidup ni ramai yang kaitkan dengan roda. absolutely yes. kadang kat atas dan kadang kat bawah. tapi aku nak kongsikan satu cerita. maksud aku masalah aku. hm.
aku dah tahu yang hidup ni macam roda. tapi aku dapat rasa yang kehidupan aku tak seperti roda pun. aku tahu yang aku tak pernah aloneeeee pun. well, Allah is always there. i knew that already tapi, hati mengada. jiwa ,hati ni semua lah semua nak kata yang aku punya kehidupan selalu kat bawah. tak gerak gerak. banyak masalah yang aku lalui. dugaan demi dugaan datang tak putus putus. semakin lama aku semakin fedap. ye aku fedap. memang each day there's people yang buat aku happy but. orang yang buat aku makin down lagi banyak. how to tempuh then? aku taknak cerita one on one, face to face, sekarang aku penakut. ye, aku tak seberani aku dulu. ye, nad yang dulu yang kuat, tabah, gembira dah takde. aku banyak menghabiskan masa dengan memikirkan masa depan aku. aku rasa aku akan terus begini. kalau aku tak jumpa jalan yang seterusnya. aku harus keluar dari kotak fikiran aku ni. aku mesti.

cause we are

cause we are an spm student next year. tuition class. sepanjang cuti dua bulan ni. T.T sadlife that i cannot enjoy my holiday but its for my masa depan too. spm is not easy. i know that. tuition class sangat sangat lah bagus because kita still tak stopkan our brain dari berjalan . kalau once dah stop, susah nak start balik. memang take time betul. kata kata cikgu zulfadzli semalam. mwahahahaahahaha. well, im gonna enjoying my class. because ada kawan baru dari sbp sbp lain. mrsm. teknik. (Y) cause we were awesomeee lidaaaaaat. haahahahaha. bye people. assalamualaikum

✌

lets check this out fellas. sepanjang im not updating my blog, there is so much things happen in my life. sama ada diduga mahupun tidak diduga. semua perasaan ada dalam diri. i trust in "people came and go" from stranger to friend to friends forever and back to friend again. that is life. i believe in it.
A.L.O.N.E !
thats my life is. but im not alone. as people came and go in my life. and Allah is there by my side. forever and always with me.i believe that kawan kawan ni semua mesti tengah terbungkam atas katil .tidur lagi. hahahaha. i just love them to the moon and never getting back and May Allah ease everything that happen in their life.

A N D ......

I SUDDENLY RASA NAK GET BACK WITH THIS LAST LONG LOST CONTACT BLOG. macam lah blog ni boleh bercakap-.- lewls nad. hahahaha.

Ezwan Harris :D

assalamualaikum :3

the reason is actually im touched with this alam maya friend a.k.a dah macam adik yang comel chubby buncit dan ajet ajet tough tulis dekat blog dia. hahahaha.

see, how sweet lah this boy. dah lah lagu blog pun mendayu dayu.

hahahahahahaha :D

wahai harris nash budak sms johor yang tough *mataatastangankatbahu* baca ni properly ye.

adik, sorry bout tak kenal awak masa awak tegur akak haritu,. apa? jejak kasih alam maya kan? hahahahahaha. at least akak ingat :D. ahha.

well to be honest im proudly to have a friend dari sains johor ni. jauhhhhh habaq hang. hahaha.

awak pun baik juga orangnyaaaaaa. muka matang nak mati. haha. tinggi awak takdelah tinggi mana walaupun tinggi daripada akak. hahaha. akak standard perempuan punya tinggi lah. cantik pulak tu. ish. alhamdulillah. HAHAHAHAHA.

well, i dont have any boyfriend like never even once pun dik. tak tipu :) and akak kan dah suruh awak tolong rekemenkan budak sana. ecececececeh. hahahahaha. sayangnya awak pada akak kan. terima kasih dik. and as a kakak, im proudly to have a strong boy like an astro boy here. hahahaha. be strong always ye :)

in shaa Allah ada rezeki kita jumpa ye awak :). kalau time cuti akak ke johor akak roger ye, hahahaha. 

dik, as it comes to your struggling year takdelah kena struggle mana awak kan dah pandai. heh. i want to take this opportunity to say

GOOOOOOOOODLUCCCCCCCCCK:* ahahahaha.

buat yang terbaik. akak taknak kata pmr tu kacang. akak tahu macam mana bila jadi form 3 and lagi lagi nak exam besar macam tu. ahha. just wait my flyers sampai kat tangan awak ye dik :) so that benda tu boleh buat awak hilang rindu kat akak and pemberi semangat kala takut dan duka :P.. hahahahaha.puitis je.

akak doakan awak bahagia dan berjaya dalam mengharungi apa apa dugaan di dunia dan akhirat.

lastly, ADIK HARRIS, i do love you too and pleasure to be in your life. :)

:3

assalamualaikum wbt. :D

its been soooooo long i didnt update my blog. haha

but then suddenly.

knock knock i've got something to write here. :D

check out next post :D

Le Holiday Week :D

Holiday start oledi meh ?ahahahaha. one week holiday je pun.tak rasa sangat lah. ahahahaha,lapaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar kenduri hoii. ahahahahaha. nak balik kelantan, then kuantan . hmmm.what a life. haha. kenduri kenduri kenduri.nanti KENTUT PUN BAU MAKANAN KENDURI, haha...till then readers. assalamualaikum :)

DOUBLE EH!

assalamualaikum wbt.

and hello everyone :)

actually post ni cuma nak bagitahu yang this is the old blog,

tapi nampak macam baru sebab semua post yang lama lama semua nad dah buang,

kenapa buang? sebab nad taknak fikir yang lepas.

InShaaAllah lepas ni,

nad akan update at least satu post satu hari,

except school day.

mana nak taip nya. ahahaha :D

till then,

wassalam :D

permaisuri.

PERMAISURI HATIKU HANYA ENGKAU YANG SATU,
terima kasih kerana telah melahirkan aku,
cintaku padamu tak akan pernah pudar sampai bila bila.

learn from the best :D

alhamdulillah, she always there for me :)

sugar glider :3

sugar glider is an animal that reallayyyrealayyy cute for me XD

my friends at school loves to call me SUGAR GLIDER ,

just because of my eyes. 

big round cutie shiny eyes. ahha

and, thats why i think sugar glider is really damn cute. hehe

some photos has been taken  :

what a cute animal :>

i salute photographer that took this picture.

if you want to make them as your pet, take them when they still child

 or i called it as "baby suglide" :D .it is more easy to make them friendly :D

thats all fellas,

assalamualaikum and byebye.

nad glider maybe XD

thanks for reading :3

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i loveeeeeeeeee this :)

remember

wherever and whenever, ALLAH is there for you. and, i  . i'll be beside you. dont be scared, dont be sad, and please, dont you ever ever feel that FOREVER ALONE is for you. insyaAllah, one day your crush will likes you like you do. im hoping the best for you :)

women :')

In Honor of Women!They smile when they want to scream.They sing when they want to cry.They cry when they are happy and laugh when they are nervous.They fight for what they believe in.They stand up for injustice.They don’t take “no” for an answer when they believe there is a better solution.They go without new shoes so their children can have them.They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.They love unconditionally.They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards.They are happy when they hear about a birth or a new marriage.Their hearts break when a friend dies.They have sorrow at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left.They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart.Women come in all sizes, in all colors and shapes.They’ll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you to show how much they care about you.The heart of a woman is what makes the world spin!Women do more than just give birth.They bring joy and hope. They give compassion and ideals.They give moral support to their family and friends.Women have a lot to say and a lot to give.


do appreciate woman :) they are special.

W.I.H.L :)

there might be a big question in your head once you've read the title of this post.

i wanna share to my readers what i have learned.
* stands for - I HAVE LEARNED (:

1. *that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.
2. *that no matter how much I care, some people just don’t care back.
3. *that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.
4. *that no matter how good a friend is, they’re going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
5. *that it’s not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts.
6. *that you should never ruin an apology with an excuse.
7. *that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes. After that, you’d better know something.
8. *that you shouldn’t compare yourself to the best others can do.
9. *that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.
10. *that it’s taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.
11. *that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.
12. *that you can keep going long after you can’t.
13. *that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.
14. *that either you control your attitude or it controls you.
15. *that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.
16. *that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.
17. *that money is a lousy way of keeping score.
18. *that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.
19. *that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you’re down will be the ones to help you get back up.
20. *that sometimes when I’m angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn’t give me the right to be cruel.
21. *that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.
22. *that just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have.
23. *that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you’ve had and what you’ve learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you’ve celebrated.
24. *that you should never tell a child their dreams are unlikely or outlandish. Few things are more humiliating, and what a tragedy it would be if they believed it.
25. *that your family won’t always be there for you. It may seem funny, but people you aren’t related to can take care of you and love you and teach you to trust people again. Families aren’t biological.
26. *that it isn’t always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you are to learn to forgive yourself.
27. *that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn’t stop for your grief.
28. *that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.
29. *that a rich person is not the one who has the most, but is one who needs the least.
30. *that just because two people argue, it doesn’t mean they don’t love each other. And just because they don’t argue, it doesn’t mean they do.
31. *that we don’t have to change friends if we understand that friends change.
32. *that you shouldn’t be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.
33. *that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.
34. *that no matter how you try to protect your children, they will eventually get hurt and you will hurt in the process.
35. *that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.
36. *that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.
37. *that the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.
38. *that it’s hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people’s feelings, and standing up for what you believe.
39. *that people will forget what you said, and people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.

lastly, I have learned to live with no regrets because at the time it was exactly what i wanted.

i think, my readers know whats the meaning of the title of the post :D

F.A.L

F.A.L stands for

 FAMILY ARE LIFE,

 FRIENDS ARE LIFE,

 FINISH A LINE,

 FIND A LIFE,

 FORGET A LOOSER,

 etc.

im bored. eyes, Y U NO CLOSE. haha. and im starvinggggggg too :3